Sorry to break it to you, but patience and trust go hand in hand.
It’s just like the Force in Star Wars. Do you want to be a Jedi or a Sith? Do you want to broker in love, hope, faith, justice, courage, prudence, and temperance? Or do you want fear, jealousy, arrogance, anger, lack of control, chaos, and confusion?
God isn’t walking about here on this earth, swiping his card at the Starbucks.
Trauma is personal. It can be anything. It doesn’t have to be as dramatic as others’. It’s how it affects YOU.
Allowing God’s spirit to do those things within me that I absolutely would prefer not to do takes an enormous amount of willingness on my part.